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Monday, November 23rd, 2009
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i feel like something drastically changed as soon as i made that post. i'm not used to feeling vulnerable and the fact that i am right now, after so long training myself not to be, is really irritating.
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Thursday, November 19th, 2009
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i love being indirectly told that i don't have a heart. but then again, i suppose it's true.
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Friday, November 13th, 2009
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i'll never fall in love and i'm okay with that.
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Friday, October 9th, 2009
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sometimes i remember how lonely i was my entire life before this year.
i can't believe i'm spinning at tonic next week and getting to shoot this halloween rave massive in LA. i don't sleep or eat or use the bathroom as much as i should anymore and i'm sick all the time and really don't care because i'm so giddy my dreams are becoming reality.
validation feels close. i just wish things would maybe fall into place towards what i actually came to california for. i'm somewhat torn and i sure hope it's possible to put 300% into things.
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Sunday, August 30th, 2009
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until friday when i woke up to like 8 text messages about it. this guy was my hero.
3 strikes in one week.
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Monday, August 17th, 2009
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so i'm starting as an intern for SBnightlife, and they just started ATLnightlife. i look on the site and one of members is somebody from high school. i'll never get over what a small world it is.
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after a four month guilt trip and a life time of indifference, life finally seems to be picking up for me. honestly i've never felt so free and strong and motivated and fulfilled.
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Wednesday, July 8th, 2009
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but you shouldn't trust me either. this is so difficult but at the same time it really isn't. i was doing so well. sigh
/vague
3 days till i get back to normalcy. back to my other double life.
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i only write in here during the extremes. things are good again. i remembered how much i love photography and that always seems to pull me through.
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santa barbara is burning down and i have no excuse but to rage. i hate it i actually wanted to be productive this weekend. mehhh.
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mom and i discussed the fact that i probably won't be coming home anymore for the one-week breaks. too expensive, too much hassle, and a whole lot of unnecessary grief. i guess i'll be in orlando now twice a year.
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Wednesday, April 8th, 2009
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if you like it than you shoulda put a ring on it, or at least, not fucked up the first time.
independent woman 4 life.
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-i caved and got a twitter because i'm lame and attention-starved and need to be on every social networking site possible. www.twitter.com/misquared
-someone stole my laptop and i'm pissed, but not defeated.
-boy issues like always.
-still in love with music, trying to make time for photography. er.
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Wednesday, March 18th, 2009
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i'm sorry for last night, and most of last week. i've learned my lesson and i promise to not destroy you anymore.
can the room stop spinning now please?
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Thursday, March 12th, 2009
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6 days of binge drinking out of... boredom. at least tonight i made it to 8pm.
although. i thought i should mention i'm happier than i've been in my entire life. i no longer hold grudges because i've finally learned that i am in control of everything that i care about.
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i have a week off school and i'm still so effing busy and tired from this past crazy weekend. mehhhh going to san fran to visit shantanu on wednesday. pasadena saturday. start school back up monday. boys noize march 13. spinning again @ static electro march 28th.
blah blah blah blah blah i'm happy and in love i'm pretty sure.
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Wednesday, February 18th, 2009
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i'm so not scared of you anymore. HAH
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Sunday, January 25th, 2009
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what a random night. i think raves at my house are going to become a monthly ritual.
also, I HAVE A FUCKING REAL GIG NEXT MONTH.
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Sunday, January 18th, 2009
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and i've never had so much fun in my life. why did i not do this sooner? you can call me 2MI from now on.
in other news, i came home at 7:30 this morning to find people in my bed and i'm not happy about it.
also, i haven't worn shoes in 2 days, and probably never will again (unless i get a job at mason).
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